track

i love track. its my life. I seriously love it, but I'm not that great. Im average.... Well, I'm the third best discus thrower but.... thats because our throwing team stinks. I wish I was good. I weigh 135 today killer. I'm glad I don't do drugs it kinda seems to ruin peoples lives like in the book Go Ask Alice... yeah I hate that book.. It gave me the illusion I did drugs. Gross... I seriously have a guilty concious after reading that book. weird? so am i . I wish everyone in the whole world was even. And we all had the same amount of money and we expeirenced the same things and were given the same opportunities... then no-one would have the excuse to do drugs.
I made two vows today . vow 1: Im going to weigh 130 by track season .. thats 33 days. 5 pounds? I can do it. me and dana are going to be diet buddies. vow 2: I'm not going to be mean or say anything mean to my family.... and maybe school too... ill try real hard for one month ... thats till november 28, please beleive in me ... if i do it then november 28th rolld around... It will be a habit. this is going to be awesome.

Im not sure if anyone will ever read this.

I just wrote this huge thing about how I'm going to be a better person and then my new laptop which i dont know how to work, earased it all. So, Im going to have to leave you hanging a little and sum it up; 1: Im insanly jelous of my friends and would kill to look like them. 2. I hate this book I had to read for english because it was about a drug user and I hate that kinda stuff. 3. I want to loose an insane amount of weight. 4 I want to love everyone just like God does... but I'm finding it imposible.